My SAHM life so far

How many days since I started my SAHM life?

Time passes by so quickly. I was extremely busy when there’s works to be done. I felt my heart beats faster and my whole body was sticky with sweat. It's definately harder than sitting in an aircond office, having 3 breaks a day on time and online-ing away!

I think I’ve changed also, towards the bad side unfortunately. I have been getting more impatient with my son.

I was not realizing it, until for a few times, my son has a scared look on his face and told me :” 妈咪…不要骂翔.

Then, I realize I was shouting to him just now. Sigh & double sigh.






I quit for my kids, but seems like I was doing not very well. I’ve quite got used to cooking, twice a day except weekends. BUT, looking back, I did not do much with them. All my plans of gaining Xiang’s confidence (badly done by me due to my impatient!) and home-teaching Xiang & Qi were on 0% actually.






One thing I did success was making Xiang eats more green vege. He does have hard stools last week when he was on food-strike, but for the past weeks while he has been eating, his stools are very turning into nicer shapes & texture

Hahahahaha, I know I'm yucky!

P/S: It's a fake plastic shit photo taken from internet

Pneumococcal vaccinations reduce H1N1 death!

I've got an important information, from both my sister and my friend. Both conveying the same massage to me.

Today in the Sun newspaper, there were 3 new cases of death, adding to total of 62 cases in Malaysia. Out of the 3 cases, 2 were of children and both died from pneumonia. I read in a letter sent in by a reader, saying that those who died of H1N1 are mainly due to pneumonia. BUT, children can take pneumococcal vaccinations in order to prevent it! The kids might still get H1N1 (touch wood touch wood) but has 30% lower risk of dying! Please see the full letter version from below link:
http://www.sun2surf.com/article.cfm?id=37000

Coincidently, when I called my sister to tell her this, she told me the same thing! Today, her kids paed told them that getting pneumococcal vaccinations very important. It's better to be safe than to be sorry.

So, I just want to share this to all my friends, hope this will be useful to fight this awful virus!

滑倒 ＊ 可怕的梦

晚上睡觉前，女儿大便完，女佣带她洗屁屁，突然DUM的一声，我心里还没喊OMG，淇已经在大声哭喊，她滑倒在厕所．后脑腫了一粒，好心痛！发觉女儿整身连头发都湿透手脚冰冷，忍不住开口骂，几点了，还跟她冲凉！！！

我在想，是否应该在厕所装PLASTIC MAT．现在他们冲凉时我用小小的一片，冲完了就拿起来．翔和淇都爱玩水，尤其是翔，冲凉时常常走来走去．

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昨天发了个恶梦．不大记得情节，只记得我的心情．梦见翔爹去世了，很伤心很伤心，很彷徨无助，感觉上我也活不下去了．醒来好害怕，又不敢对老公说，怕影响他．不懂代表着什么吗？

网上找解梦，有以下解答：

１．按中国传统解梦法来讲，梦见健康的亲人去世，则意味着此亲人会增寿。　希望如此吧！

２．　如果亲人正在重病中或者你非常担心失去某人，这时梦见此人的死亡可能表示一种担心和焦虑，但我认为不排除个别第六感非常敏锐的人也有可能做先兆性的梦。　担心失去是有的，以后我们全家都靠翔爹了啊．我从来没什么第六感的，希望不会吧！！！！！！

３．　从西方解梦的角度讲，弗洛伊德曾指出，梦见亲友死亡而且很悲痛，往往是幼儿时因某事件怨恨亲人希望亲友死亡的愿望再现．　吓？！我没那么黑心啦！

４．　梦见亲人死亡也可能象征着自己内心正在变得冷漠或压抑。　？？？不会吧！

[翔2y7m] NO.2校外旅行

明天(7月31日)拿了一天假,为了陪翔去幼儿园所主办第二次的校外旅行. 幼儿园规定3岁班的学生只有在家长陪同下才可以参加此活动.他们将参观Yakult厂还有芙蓉烧包.孩子们还有机会亲手做烧包 (过后会给我们吧,不然还有谁敢吃!!?)

这次又将会是我孤身作战.我记得翔爹他在无法参与上次的动物园之游说过,下次一定不缺席.翔应该不记得了,我倒是很失望,其中最重要的是他的不守诺言.虽然我明白翔爹都为了有个更好的家庭环境而努力的赚钱.可是爸爸也应该参与孩子们的成长过程啊.虽然有妈妈陪同,可是如果也有爸爸在的感觉肯定不同.

我小时候,最最最不满我父母的是他们的不守诺言,他们的约法三章90%是不可靠的.其次就是他们过于保护我,连中学的校外旅行考察我也无法去.当同学们回来时,我更本无法和她们交谈,只因为我没参与,考察的后感报告我也无法做.(还好是团体报告,也还好我有一班好朋友们,肯接受我这个什么都不懂的团员)

无数次我哭着对他们喊:”你们骗我~~~”/”我要去~~~”,更多的时候,我躲在房间里哭着想离家出走(胆小怕事的我当然只是想想而已).这也是可能为什么我有一段非常叛逆的时期,对父母的不礼貌,吃饭后就躲房间不肯出来,还有假期的晚上不到3点是不回家滴.

我曾经有个员工,她在大学的成绩是顶呱呱,什么奖章都有,所以我们对她的期望也很高.她第一个星期来上班就吓了我们一跳.她爸特地请了一星期的假,老远从家乡来到这里.只为了每天上下班时,坐在她身旁指示她驾车,可是当时她已有执照几年了.

我们厂里的生产部向来是和我们品质部的”死对头”.因为她一个小小的错误, 生产部趁机投诉大老板.结果她就坐在那儿懊悔足足哭了3天!还有一次,她乘朋友车来,因为当天她感觉到信心全失,不敢驾车来上班(我们听了都目瞪口呆,不懂说什么好).每个星期六&日,她肯定回家乡,躲回爸妈的怀抱.后来她没做多久,承受不了压力,回家乡另谋高就.我们每个都觉得很不可思议,可是也证实了成绩好,并不代表以后你可以闯一番大事业.

看到别人的经历及自己小时的不满,我都时时刻刻都提醒自己, 不可重蹈覆辙!


P/S: 不懂为何写那么多,本来只想写个郊游就算了,越扯越远.
P/S2: 我要改用中文了,练习下,以应对将来的函授课程.

Full time mom

After seeing Sam blogging about her future plans, I’ve decided to write out what’s in my mind over the past few months, or should I say over the past year!

I have the thought of becoming a much better & committed mom to my 2 kids ever since September 2008. I have often asked myself how would my childhood be if my mother was a working mom – no one to make sure I took breakfast in the morning, no nicely made lunch box with my favorite fried rice & luncheon meat (my fav!), no one to greet me after school, no hot-mom-cooking lunch & dinner waiting on the table once I finished bathing, no one there to spoil me (撒娇 – I can’t recall the word in English). Of course all of these can be done by babysitter, but I can’t imagine myself being taken care by babysitter either! For sure, I’ll be scared of babysitter in someway won’t be the same as with my mom.

I still remember clearly where I played by myself or with sisters when kids time. It is just enough for me to stay beside my mom and knowing she’s there under the same roof even though all the while she’s doing the household chores. (My mom is extremely particular about cleanliness and woke up at 5am every day until now!)

I have been working for 9 years now in this company, my first job and maybe my last??? My attitude and commitment towards my job have drastically changed ever since last year. I just don’t have the “heart” anymore and were often thinking of how much I could do for my kids if I were at home with them during office hour (and of course, blogging!)

Of course, I am worried and even little bit scared of life being stay-at-home-mom. I need to prepare 3 meals each day and make sure my kids are eating right. This I have to put a lot of hard work in it as my cooking skill is bad. My son is a very picky eater and I need double patience to coax him whenever he is with me during the weekends.

Being SAHM will also put some burden and stress onto my husband as we will be financially dependent on him, which I don’t like neither! I may sound over-worried or thinking too much, but who knows about the future? Furthermore, I have 2 kids to look after and what if there’s problem with our financial status? My husband and I have been through a very down time before married whereby his car was almost pulled away by bank, a terribly hard period for both of us. Of course, I need to cut down my budget, which is a big challenge for me on not to shop too often.

Next I’m worried about my EQ. Can I handle both my kids without going crazy? Can I control my temper? I do have a very bad temper. Can I be a good example to my kids? "Everytime I told someone about my plans, usually I got negative feedbacks and questions "huh, you throw away your degree and become a full time mom???" "why you let go a secured job with good pay just to become wong min po?" "you financially dependent on husband - aren't you worried ...?" "Are you sure it's worth it???"

But I guess that I will be happy if my kids are happy to have me around them for 24 hours a day & 7 days a week. Although there’s so many uncertainly in my head and un-confidence in me, BUT I’ve determined to quite my job on this coming November 2009 and starting from December 2009, a brand new life for me & for my kids.

P/S: in case some of you asked, why Nov? Oct end got bonus mah … hahahaha …